God doesn’t make mistakes, I know.
Even with all my flaws – physically and emotionally – God loves me just the way I am.
But, I still look forward to a glorified body one day in Heaven.
Until then –
I am 5’7” tall
Need to lose weight, have long clumsy arms and legs and I am short waisted.
I am getting gray hair and I am childless
I am slowly accepting the fact that am not a teenager any longer and I should start accepting and loving my 43 year old body.
I have physical scars
From battles I have been conquering since I was 5 years old
On my face – from a glass shelf falling on me
On my left leg – from a fall down a stairwell
On my left wrist – from surgery because my head thinks I am 10 again on roller skates
In my head – can’t see it but I know it’s there from removing a pituitary tumor
I have emotional scars
They are teaching me I am too old to play head games with people any longer
I am learning my worth from them
And I’m learning that if others don’t see it then I just move on
God’s Word reassures me even though I am not worthy He extends his GRACE to me
For God so loved the world (that’s me included)
That He gave his only begotten son
That whosoever believes in Him
Will not perish but have everlasting life.